Oops, sorry about that. Missing in action for a day or two. See, my girlfriend finished her last final on Wednesday, and is officially on vacation until she starts her summer job in a couple weeks, and if I’m not working, it kind of feels like a vacation for me as well. So, long story short, last couple days weren’t too productive. Yesterday I did get a bunch of resumes out, so it wasn’t a total throw away, but I wasn’t on my regimented routine that I like to keep. Thursday was actually super-fun, though - we went to a taping of the Daily Show, which took, in total, about 4 or 5 hours, but was damned entertaining and well worth it.
I also got a call back from those reality show people and it turns out, I have been selected to appear on their show and get a haircut! Since hearing that, I’ve become a bit apprehensive about the whole thing. I was really “on” when I had my screen test in a way that I am not most of the time. You know, witty and sharp, and telling fun stories and relating with the producer well. I’m just worried after all of that, I’ll get to the show and slink back into my normal, boring, stuttery, intimidated self. I mean, I really don’t know what is supposed to happen or what it will be like, but getting up fairly in the morning and hanging around a TV crew and getting my haircut - this is not a recipe for an appearance of my social side. I’m really worried I’ll show up and just be all shy and withdrawn and useless. It’s ok. Realistically, I’ll get everything that I wanted out of the situation and more - a free haircut and a funny story - but I hate disappointing people, and everyone keeps say what a great opportunity it is, being on TV or whatever, which makes me worry about squandering it. Of course, I don’t even know what that means. I don’t see how this could possibly be an opportunity for anything other than a nice haircut, but when you are in a desperate, unemployed state of mind, the abstract idea of an “opportunity” takes on an unusual importance.
So, starting Monday, it’s back to the grind, back to the schedule, and when Wednesday and the haircut finally come, I’m just gonna think of it as a fun excuse to get out of the house.
May 17th, 2008
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I had my first actual job interview today. I think it went really well, but it’s weird and anxious to sit there and look someone in the eye thinking “This job might be a living hell.” That’s a little bit of an exaggeration, but I am pretty genuinely apprehensive about it. It was something that could possibly be construed as helping people, and in somewhat of a direct fashion, but I’m worried that this thin veneer will fade in not too long, and I’ll just begin to see it as a miserable, dry, repetitive customer-service position. That being said, it offered good benefits, a good schedule, and was fairly easy to commute to, but I’m not sure if it’s worth it. It has a huge learning curve, so I’ll feel like an idiot there for a long time, which is, realistically, something I’m looking for. Not feeling stupid, of course (I do a great job of that on my own, thank you), but it is great to feel like you are learning something at work. That being said, cramming your head with useless knowledge that will prepare you for an even dryer, less socially conscious job could have a pretty soul damaging effect. What makes me most apprehensive, though, is that they are looking for a one year commitment. I would be less reluctant to make this plunge if I felt there was some growth opportunity in the company, but, while the company itself is expanding into new territories, it seems the group I would be working in is something of a black hole from which there is nowhere to go.
I haven’t completely ruled it out. There are some definite pluses and minuses, but, looking at it in black and white as I described it, it’s not looking too good. This whole experience, though, definitely strengthens my resolve to go to grad school, so I’m thinking of adding a half hour somewhere in my schedule to grad school research and prep. If I want to apply for next fall, I think I’m already behind. Isn’t that sick?
This morning I had the pleasant surprise of meeting a friend for brunch who was in town unexpectedly. There are some definite advantages of not having a job that will be sorely missed. All this activity today prevented me from getting many resumes out, and the one I was most excited about, I fucked up my cover letter hard core. God, it practically makes me wanna cry. My head just wasn’t in it today, that happens. But the truth is, with the craigslist posts, at least, if you don’t get your resume to them the day they post, or at latest the day after, you don’t stand a chance anyway. Best to throw your hat in the ring, even if it’s a dunce cap.
May 14th, 2008
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I am really loathe to do this. I didn’t at all the last time I was looking for a job, not once. I would just send out as many resumes as I could and do my
best not to think about where or how many, then wait for the calls to start coming in. But back then, I had some idea of what I was looking for, so I never doubted that I was staying appropriately focused. Thanks to the magic of the gmail sent mail box, I can objective audit my job search and see how I’ve been doing. All right, so here we go - day by day, let’s see how I did:
Monday: It looks like I only got 3 resumes out that day, but there were a few jobs throughout the week that involved forms online rather than sending an email. I have no way to account for those, so I’ll just keep in mind that there may be a few more for any day. As for the 3 there, one of them is to be a Directors Assistant, which would be cool, but not so socially conscious. Another appears to be at an Agency of some kind, which is really a step in the wrong direction. The third doesn’t even count - it’s some online writing thing, not far from this blog concept.
Tuesday: Another 3. This time, two of them appear to off target - a talent agency, and Ad Trafficking (whatever that means), but the third seems like it’s potentially in the right direction. I actually had a phone interview about this third one today, and I’m not 100% convinced that it would prove satisfying in terms of helping people, but I’m still open to it. The advantages of it would include a jeans and t-shirt dress code, and getting out at 5:30, so this alone makes it pretty desirable.
Wednesday: Ouch! Only 1! Here’s what I think happened here. I started looking at Idealist.org, and got way too intimidated to actually send anyone anything. None of my cover letters as of yet were related to those types of jobs, and I don’t really have any specific nonprofit experience. Also, my computer has been running really slowly, and that website in particular seems to really slow things down. The result was hours spent looking at things or waiting to look at things, with nothing to show for it. Just yesterday, though, I started hitting a groove with some of the posts from that site, and sent out a decent handful. Maybe now that I got the ball rolling for that, it will prove to be a valuable resource. the one job I applied to was a music industry job. I don’t know how right it would be for me or vice versa, but I do love music, so why not at least find out, right?
Thursday: All right! This is what I like to see - 8! Two of these are Music Industry jobs, but both of them seem possibly questionable. It’s easy to be mislead into something that sounds a lot more exciting than it actually is. Of the rest, I would say that 3 of them could broadly be consider on target for jobs that might be satisfying from a moral point of view. The other three, I think, were vague in the ads, but seemed like I’d be qualified for them and that they would be sufficient for one reason or another, even though it was unclear what the actual companies were. I guess once you get into a rhythm of sending out resumes, it’s easy to just keep going, and throw them out there, even if the job offers only the slightest glimmer of possibility.
Friday: Busy day - 3 interviews, if you count that free-haircut-reality-show thing (which I haven’t heard back about yet), so it’s understandable that I only got 1 resume out. It was to PA for a feature shooting in NY soon, but I would have heard by now if they wanted me. Oh well. I don’t really want to PA anyway, that’s sort of the exact opposite of what I want, considering the ridiculous hours that it requires.
Overall, I would say not the best week. It would be a little disheartening to look back at all of those very weak prospects, except for the fact that I know I had a really big day of resume sending yesterday (10 at least), so I can chalk last week up to getting some momentum going. I don’t want to give myself a grade, that seems really stupid now.
Maybe tomorrow I’ll go into a little bit more detail about which jobs I’ve been applying to and why, and which ads I skip over without even looking at them. I think that would shed some like on all of this.
May 13th, 2008
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I’m going to spend today and tomorrow assessing how everything went last week, in terms of both my personal and employment related goals. Today I’ll be focusing on my daily schedule and how well I’ve been keeping it. If you look back a few posts, you’ll see where I laid out how I wanted to organize each of my now completely empty days.
As far as my morning block, I’m sure no one will be surprised that I’ve managed to drink tea, eat oatmeal (or whatever) and read a book for about an hour every single morning! You know what? I haven’t really been talking about this so much, maybe I’ll dedicate a post or two about it, but it is really really hard for me to maintain a positive self-image even when I am gainfully employed. In my current situation, it takes every ounce of my being not to fall into intense self-loathing. That being said, yes, I am going to take unironic pride in any success I have in keeping to my schedule, even if that means being pleased at eating a healthy breakfast. And I’m still reading Lolita - I didn’t read comic books all week, that counts for something!
As for the exercising, I’ve found the biggest obstacle to this has so far been the weather, which is not something I can do too much about, but I have been a pretty big wimp about it. I did go running 3 days last week, but excused myself for even the slightest bit of rain, rationalizing that I’m only just getting back into this after half a year hiatus, and I should be a bit careful getting started. There is definitely something to this. In the 3 days I did go running, I nearly got hit by at least as many cars, so I’m going to try to stick to optimal conditions at least for now, to mitigate as much risk as possible. I think I’m going to order a yoga video to be an indoor alternative to my running, and perhaps a mid-afternoon break, sort of thing. I’ve never done yoga, but I have horrible joints and I really think it could help me focus and to center myself. I’ll let you know how that goes.
Otherwise, as predicted, the job search portion of the days often becomes incredibly consuming, and often stretches well beyond it’s boundary. It’s easy enough to stop for lunch - when I do go running, I have a ridiculous appetite that sneaks up on me and tears me away from anything I might be doing, but it’s pretty hard not to want to come right back to where I left off on Craigslist, or wherever. Unfortunately, this does not mean that I’ve been terribly productive with it, for various reasons. I’ll discuss some of this in tomorrows evaluation of my job search, and I really just need to dedicate an entire post to all the ridiculous distractions that wreak havoc with my productivity (I’m looking at YOU, gchat!)
As for my Productive Leisure and writing time, this has been entirely absorbed by this very blog. I think this is problematic, but temporary. I started this to help me get more comfortable writing, but the completely casual and unaccountable nature of it makes me think that it doesn’t improve it any. This is fine for now. It does do other things - this is the best job I’ve ever done of keeping up a journal, and they say that that can have as positive of an effect on your mental health as therapy - but I’m worried that it is taking too much of my mental energy that I should be dedicating to my other projects. I do think this is temporary, though. I think I’ll start falling into a rhythm with this that allows my to keep it up with the thoroughness and quality that I would like, without sacrificing the time and energy that I want to be putting into my more important projects. I have had a tendency in my life, though, to take on too many projects at once, preventing any meaningful progress with any of them. I think it might be a defense mechanism.
I really should start actually TIMING these things, though. I don’t know how long I actually spend on this blog, or any of these things that I have so carefully plotted out into hours through the day. Maybe I need to get a watch, or that program that helps you organize and account for your time that I saw on one of these blogs. He actually has some interesting advice on ways to make money from the internet, which I might want to try myself, but would probably just be another unnecessary distraction in my life.
So, for keeping up with my schedule, I’m gonna give myself a high B - maybe an 87 - not quite a B plus. Hmm…. actually, maybe I don’t want to go down that route. Grading myself? That might be a bit much. Tune in tomorrow to see how I did applying to jobs, and to see whether or not I end up approving of the idea of grading myself.
May 12th, 2008
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Job or not, I am a firm believer in the weekend. It is absolutely essential to take a day or two out of every week and leave it aside for yourself, your family, your sanity. Is the Torah the oldest known record of this concept, or have we found cave paintings detailing an average Homo-Erectus week, ending with a hammock and lemonade? So, toward that end, I’m still taking weekends. No job searching, no rigidly structured days, no self-loathing (well……), and just enjoying myself. I’m still gonna try to keep up the blog over the weekends, but the topics will reflect that. I don’t want to stray too far from its missio, but there are plenty of things to talk about that are maybe more fun or tangential. For example, maybe tomorrow I’ll talk about the music I listen to while I search for jobs. I have specific rules for that (I’m sure that’s a surprise), and a lot of favorites that make me happy to listen to and talk about. The other thing is I’m going to keep them a lot shorter, which, realistically, I should probably be doing anyway, but this will be a good start to try and get me into that habit. We’ll see how that goes. As for today, I’m feverishly typing this so I can finish up and run and catch a bus to New Jersey to see my good friends new apartment!
All right, so have a great weekend, everybody, and don’t stress out about crap that belongs to the week!
May 10th, 2008
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Yeah, that’s right, today I tried out for a reality show. Not as a job prospect, actually, not even on purpose. As I was doing my usual troll through Craigslist ads, I filled out a form for one that I thought was just for a free haircut. I see ads for free haircuts on Craigslist all the time, and I’m getting pretty darn shaggy, and with interviews (hopefully) coming up, and my financial situation in question, it seemed like a pretty natural thing to sign up for. I didn’t stop to think why they would be posting for free haircuts in the jobs section, and it wasn’t until I was probably 3/4 finished with the online form that I realized that it was for some sort of reality show. At that point, though, I figured I was nearly done with it anyway, and it still was a free haircut, so I might as well at least finish up the form.
They called me yesterday and set up an appointment for this afternoon. With the horrible weather today, it seemed like perhaps a bit too much effort to go through to save fifteen bucks, but I’m not one to cancel appointments. The truth is, it out to be a lot of fun. I went over and chatted with this woman for maybe fifteen minutes while being taped, which was a bit weird, but I tried to ignore it. It was kind of like a job interview, but instead of trying to impress anyone and talking about employment and goals and strengths and weaknesses and skills, I just gushed about my favorite bands and told the story about when I played ukulele at a Guided By Voices tribute show (she actually claimed her friends played at the same show, which is amazing if that’s true) and some other fun topics.
At the end she told me a little bit about the show, which she says is about how people develop real relationships with their stylists at salons, and how she, herself, tells her stylist everything. I think I made it clear that I’m more interested in free or cheap, quick and easy haircuts than any sort of bonding experience, but obviously “reality television” is just a name, and I don’t think it would be too disingenuous for me to try to be friends with some dude cutting my hair and pretend that this is something I seek out generally. Who know, maybe I’ll make a new friend or enter into some sort of salon therapy relationship. God knows I could use some sort of therapy. So we’ll see if I get a call back about that. I’d be getting my hair cut on either the 21st or 22nd. And probably not too short - she said she liked it shaggy.
But, yes, that is not a job. She was one of 4 people that I contacted thus far who got back to me - all of which I filled out online forms for instead of sending a resume with cover letter email, which is telling, I think. One of the others turned out to be for a political PARTY as opposed to a political ORGANIZATION, which definitely made me uncomfortable about the whole thing. I’m a political guy, and I’ll happily get behind a wide range of issues, but if it’s a party with an entire platform and everything, I want to make sure that I’m not fighting for 5 positions I believe in deeply, and one I’m mortified by.
The other two were both for staffing companies, which are frustrating in how they rope you in. They post for a single job, and you follow the series of links as though you are applying for said job, but you end up signing up for a staffing company instead. They want to place you as a receptionist, executive assistant, or the like, but would also happily get you temp jobs, which, I think, is a more lucrative outcome for them. I saw each of them this morning, which was an interesting experience.
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May 9th, 2008
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I’m going to say, right off, that this should be by no means misconstrued as “instructional”. If I really knew was I was doing, I probably wouldn’t be in this situation. On the other hand, I’ve been in this situation enough to have my own Job Search Procedure down to a science, so here it is. If anyone sees any glaring flaws in this, or perhaps could suggest something more efficient or comprehensive, I would love to hear it. There’s something about blogs that seem really authoritative, so it’s important to me that I make it clear that the position I’m writing from is not that of an expert, but someone as lost and scraping as anyone.
I do all of my job searching from right here at my desk. I heard rumors years ago of job opportunities being listed in newspaper and other print mediums, but there’s more than enough right here to keep me busy, so I’ve yet to have the need to explore such radical options. When I was looking for a production, media, film and entertainment jobs exclusively, my search was limited to Craigslist.org, Mandy.com (which is just production listings), entertainmentjobs.com, and, if those failed me and I was getting frustrated, Google helped me fine a couple of other, less reliable sites.
Now that I’m free from the chains of direction, I’ve actually become more limited in the number of sites I check. This is because I’ve been sifting through more or less EVERY SINGLE post on each of them, and investigating anything that seems remotely interesting, or that I might be qualified for. I’ve limited myself thus far to Craigslist.org, Idealist.org (which focuses on non-profit jobs - remember, I’m looking for a new career that will make me feel like I’m making a positive change in the world), and Monster.com.
Every time I see something that seems like a possibility, however vague (sometimes that means just not knowing what it is), I open that post in a new tab in my browser. When I’m done going through all of the days latest posts on one of those three huge sites, I end up with a few dozen open tabs describing jobs that mostly sound terrible and/or unattainable. I try to root those out and in a new window completely, open the best sounding of the list. That usually leaves me with about, say, 6. By then, I’m usually frustrated, exhausted, demoralized, and unfortunately, more than once, where I gave in for the day, which doesn’t help anything at all.
If there are some that I’m excited about, or if I have the energy to persevere anyway, submitting a resume online is a pretty painless process. What takes awhile is tailoring my cover letter to send with it to show that I really am interested in and uniquely ideal for this particular job, and that I’m not just copying and pasting the same cover letter to the hundreds of other jobs I’m applying to. Which I am doing, of course. I’m not going to sit and rewrite a brand new letter each time when I have hundreds in my Sent Mail box, but each one does have to be tailored, which can take awhile. Plus, I really have to read through each one before I send it, as much as it pains me to do so. I really think that leaving one glaring error can cost you a job, and what could be worse than copying and pasting the same stupid error to who knows how many potential employers? Or what about the date? I put the date at the top of it, you know, part of the formal business heading, and what if I left a date from a YEAR ago? Yeah, rereading is necessary, especially if I’m applying to a job that would incorporate proofreading.
Another inevitable deal breaker is forgetting to change who the letter is addressed to, or forgetting to attach my resume, or attaching it where I should have pasted it, because they don’t accept attachments, or getting the email address wrong that I’m sending it to. There are so many ways in which the slightest mistake or oversight could render the application completely useless, the job opportunity lost, and so much time wasted, that the moment of actually committing to it and hitting “send” is always fraught with anxiety. I suppose I’ll start feeling that way about the “Publish” button on this page, too.
Ok, I know, a lot of this was really dry and really obvious, but I think it’s helpful to see what it is I’m actually doing before I get into the nuances of what I’m looking for in a Job Post, and what I’m specifically trying to avoid, and all of the other deeper issues of trying to find a new career and direction for myself. Not to mention as a preface to any observation I might have about this process, it’s helpful to know what the process is. This is my first week, here - I have to lay out all of this groundwork before I start getting deeper or more current.
May 8th, 2008
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I tried really hard not to think about my job situation at all over the weekend, figuring I should enjoy the lack of anxiety while I could. The one thing I allowed myself to consider (or couldn’t stop myself from considering) was how to structure the endless open days ahead of me. I recalled bitterly my last unemployed stint, where my days were spent sitting half-comatose on the couch or half-comatose staring at my computer. Working on my projects felt indulgent and intimidating, and any time spent doing anything other than looking for job postings and replying to them felt like a waste. So, in attempt to head off the dreary, depressing, listless experience that long periods of unemployment almost inevitably become, I came up with a daily schedule for myself, which includes ample time for myself and my projects in addition to the necessary job search stuff. I haven’t written it down yet, so this will be helpful for me, to see it written out.
7:30am - 8:30 - Exercise - I run for awhile, then do some sit-ups and push-ups. I’m not athletic or clever enough to come up with anything more interesting than that. This feels great, though, because I NEVER exercised while I had my last job, and this way, I feel like I’ve made a real improvement in lifestyle already (despite the lack of income).
8:30 - 9:00 - Shower - The other added benefit of exercising is it forces you to take a shower. It’s easy enough to skip this when you aren’t going out all day. For the record, I don’t take half hour long showers, this also includes drying, dressing, etc.
9:00 - 10:00 - Breakfast with Leisure Reading - Protein shake and a pot of tea, oatmeal if I’m extra hungry, or my favorite cold cereal (Uncle Sam, woo!). Wow, anyone that reads this is gonna think I’m so healthy, where in fact I’m just bland. Also, it’s good to build in some time during the day to just relax and read what I want. Right now, that’s Lolita, but I’m also breaking that up with some Jack Kirby superhero comic books.
10:00 - 10:10 - Brush Teeth - Seriously. I could not BELIEVE how much this fell to the wayside last time I didn’t have a job. And without dental insurance, this is not something I have the luxury of skipping. 10 minutes for teeth brushing is actually not as much of an exaggeration as you might think. Oral hygiene is important!
10:10 - 1:00pm - The Job Search - Online. I’ll dedicate a bunch of posts to this later, but for now I’ll just say, I have a lot of mixed feelings about keeping this so limited. On one hand, I need a job, but on the other hand, it’s very easy for this to become completely consuming.
1:00 - 2:00 - Lunch - I also watch a little bit of TV here - right now, one episode of the third season of “Arrested Development.” I had the same lunch ritual last time, which got me through the first two seasons.
2:00 - 4:00 - Project Time - I have two major projects that I’m working on right now, that are very important to me, and here is the time allotted to them. However, this was before I realized I was doing this blog thing, so this can fit into this time slot as well (Hi, 3:45!).
4:00 - 5:00 - Productive Leisure Time - This is where I do things like research for the above projects, which, without giving too much away, can involve watching movies. It’s also the time for errands. There isn’t so much of a hard deadline between this and the last slot, it’s more like a 3 hour block. The only reason to separate them is to make sure that I dedicate a solid block of time to writing, because, as we all know, that’s the only way you get better.
5:00 - 7:00 - Back t0 the Job Search - I wish after reading that you heard some weird Mariachi or Salsa music with horns and marimba. Imagine that you did, please.
7:00 - This is as far as I figured out, probably about the time I’d start thinking about dinner (I’m making a serious effort to actually make my own meals), but I guess it’s not a coincidence that this is when The Simpsons is on. I’m also trying REALLY hard not to watch TV - more on the constant struggle not to waste my entire empty day later. However, I guess it’s fair to call 7 o’clock “quittin’ time” - that’s actually when my last job got out.
So there you have it, my overly structured day! So how well have I been sticking to this, on this, my 3rd day at home during the week? I’ll follow up on this next week.
I would like to know, though - what does anyone think of this schedule? Am I setting myself up for failure? Is this a vast improvement over no schedule, but a long way from what I should be doing? Anyone out there who has a schedule to share? Anyone out there at all?
May 7th, 2008
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I was fired from my job on Friday. I deserved it completely. I had basically stopped making any attempt at being in any way, and I think it was awfully generous of my boss to let me go with kind words and a bit of a severance (despite being freelance), as opposed to what I actually deserved…
So, I’m unemployed again. It really hasn’t been that long since the last miserable, boring, listless days in the beginning of January before starting that last job. But this time, things are very different. For one thing, since this last job had been freelance, I’m not going to get any unemployment benefits, so that puts a little more pressure on things. But more importantly, I am now completely without direction. This last experience really soured me from the reality of media production jobs - I’m sick of the superficiality, the indulgence, the boredom, and, possibly most of all, the pseudo-creativity of it. It took me too long to realize that any creative aspirations I have are my own, and that it’s not a satisfying use of my creative energy (which, let’s be honest, wasn’t really a part of any job I’ve had anyway, so I’ll concede some sour grapes here), to have a job in the commercial industry*. So now, not only am I looking for a new job, but a new career as well - a whole new direction. And I’ve got nothing. And a very specific resume that will take a whole lot of twisting to show that I’m qualified to do anything. Which is, of course, debatable. The only hint of a path I’ve got is that I’d like to do something that actually helps people for a change - I can be self-indulgent on my own time.
However, there is another, more positive reason why this bout of joblessness is different from the last one - I’m actually motivated this time. Last time I lost my job, it was after the company I was with folded after a year and a half stint on my part - without a vacation. I was just worn out and needed a week to sleep in, from which, I never exactly recovered. This time, I arrive after spending nearly all of my time confined and idle, with creative projects left to the side, victim of a long workday. So, after spending the weekend in self-imposed denial, I woke up early yesterday, went running, and attempted to impose a new unemployment schedule for myself - one that included time to spend on my own projects, not just frantically searching for jobs, fraught with anxiety and guilt.
And among my searching yesterday, I found this today.com blog thing, and I really thought it was a perfect opportunity. Among the projects I am going to be pursuing in my hopefully short span of excessive free time, is a very ambitious writing project, which I’m entirely intimidated by. There’s nothing like having a reason to force yourself to sit down and do a little bit of writing every day to get you feeling more comfortable with doing so, which is one immediate advantage. Also, what I want to do here is to keep a running track of my trials and travails in finding a new direction for myself, and keeping myself sane and productive at the same time. It’s not such an easy thing to do. Maybe by keeping track of my progress here, I can keep myself on target, or at least, provide something for someone who might be in the same situation as me. Encouragement? Ideas on what to do or what not to do? I’m not really sure what someone else might get out of this, I haven’t really thought that far. I guess I’m not completely convinced that anyone will be reading it, but, in case of that eventuality, please please feel to comment. I would love this to be a dialog. I’d love advice on my job search and on my writing, and on life and love and living. And I’d be happy to try to answer any questions anyone might want to ask of me. Why not?
So that’s what’s going on with me and with my blog. I’ll be talking about other things, I’m sure, but I’m already off to a late start - this is job search day 2, after all - so I’ve already got a back log of things to talk about that I’ll parse out over the week, I suppose. This seems pretty long already.
*I’ve got a lot to say about all of that - the last job, the media, the commercial industry, indulgence - I’ll probably have to post a rant or two about that.
May 6th, 2008
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